Here I stand
Sight set on the unchanged yacht I once left adrift
Thy that revered
Agonized by something unseen
I’m this happy because of you
I’m sorry, to you who have a place in me
Those barren sojourns
The finale of something borrowed
The dirty shallow path
Freight not of walking down it
Embraced by one’s own tradition
Embraced by one’s suffocation
There is this trail
One’s familiar to stroll ahead
Like wool, white as snow
Like coal, dark as night
One of each side
One to be apart
Run, freely as you may
Those roots had shivered off your feet
To what you are
Pillowing my arms for you
Breaking your bones ju
The morning sun had just rose
Chirping birds, fiddling of a great day
A light of shining beam on the other end
Slowly, dimly, fading
Away
Looking out of the window
A different flock of birds sitting on the perch
How fast does time burn
Burn
Ashes flies
Theres memoirs written on the grass
Unfazed, perpetually
These roots of vines
Crawl as its an eternal snake
Hushing, lethally
Silence of the ringing chime
Prejudice as it always was
The grin from the East dies away
That untold yarn of a soul with pride
Rhombus of fog covers it all
Dove with a beak of a hawk
Fallen, by a meager of the dead crow
You
Some say, it isnt hard to let time heals
Swayed, this aching heart rest aside
Hoping, and praying for that one peace
Grasping on, bit by bit it slips away
Honey, this twinge within is ripping deep away
God, had they lied about time?
Lying aside asking, why?
Love nor hate isnt, why not?
Albeit resolving on this one desire, silently
Sinking restlessly, eagerly
Are we meant to, or are we not?
She will be there, wont you?
Remembering this, one at a time
Realigning puzzles of that time, broken
This mulish heart was once again, apart
Will moments apart ease, or nay
Take away these bleeding utterances, away
Wonder
This morning
I walk this path again
The same one that once I walked with you
You were there, once
Moments ago
Voices whispers about you
Misses
Miss you
Then, you were once there
I sang to myself
This song of your story
Not mine, or theirs
My dear friend,
You got me wrong
Earlier, you were there
That colour on your face
Vibrant
Wish of mine to remain so
Yours, neither
And, now you're not there
Not here
Neither
This once is past
I never loved you
This is thy story
Once were untold
Flash of remedies flow by
Rinsing through this flesh
Like
This flesh of thy
Quinched on a barren land
Sinking
This mind that tires
And soon this sandclock
Will drop its last bit
Empty
Reminiscense of thy
Unfolds by these stones
Of all these route
Carved thru thy skin
That river that flows
Past
That same dove that hovers above
Some same hordes that past
Once
These freedom freight
Ruined within these mind
That eyes that sees
Sour
And I
Turn around and gaze back upon those years
I behold upon a dove
The same one I saw this morning
In my reverie
And I
Tried to loot back those wounded glasses
But some sulks in and refused to emerge
Mourning for reprieve
Ive got cast aside without benevolence
And I
So intimidated of things to come
Cuddling with those lies that once made get me through
Detached with my hale divine
Guess it was a prank of my own
And I
Fumble over again
Missing back those moments that I locked up
Wailing like a dog that lost its way out
Could only plead for swap my breath to secure his.
Sulking in the sand of that beach
That same old beach where rapture always seems to be
Shivering off these fear of dawn
That same old beach never seems to bother
Often would thy think of why
Scarcely might thy know why
Swaying those chains with hesitancy
Then next the same old beach would be none.
Conceivably puddle might soak off
Just like that night when the owl stops to sing
And if time does halt in
So shall it be for the vital ones.
That same old beach
Stumbled on a needle the other day
These concrete clouds hinted to fall
That day we were on the same spot
Awkward sights on the faces of those birds
It shows how it might b
In this path
I found signs of disbelieve
I sighted hint of the broken ones
I smelt soak of tears
I tasted bitter words
I touched jagged heart
In that path
I see
A different part..
But not better.
Those scripts on that page
Long thy heard of what these were
Lucid may some see
And some, not
Perhaps there was a string back then
Sunshine is no longer by my side
Sulking thru the night in a blood soaked coat
Tasty might it feel if I am a wolf
But I am what Im not
Nothing happened before then, and now
This isnt a place where I belong
Those scribbles of time had long left me afloat.
Here I stand
Sight set on the unchanged yacht I once left adrift
Thy that revered
Agonized by something unseen
I’m this happy because of you
I’m sorry, to you who have a place in me
Those barren sojourns
The finale of something borrowed
The dirty shallow path
Freight not of walking down it
Embraced by one’s own tradition
Embraced by one’s suffocation
There is this trail
One’s familiar to stroll ahead
Like wool, white as snow
Like coal, dark as night
One of each side
One to be apart
Run, freely as you may
Those roots had shivered off your feet
To what you are
Pillowing my arms for you
Breaking your bones ju
Tears of joy
Upon the birth of a child
Tears of numb
Upon the death of a child
I never was a perfect son for any parents
I never was a perfect sibling for any siblings
I never was a perfect friend for any fiends
I never was a perfect lover for any gals
I never was a perfect student for any lecturers
I never was a perfect vocalist for any bands
I never was a perfect protector for any weak worms
I never was a perfect cheater for any lawyers
I never was a perfect jerk for any bastards
I never was a perfect enemy for any frontiers
I never was a perfect sperm for any ovum
I am wasted
Never too late for forgiveness
But there isn't anyone there for me
Never too early to give up
But there always failure ahead of me
Never too fair to be too good
But there never a chance for me to be
Never too fake to be real
But there seems I'm always the puppet
Never too dumb to fall in love
But mind is a matter which ruined everything
Never too blind to bind with feelings
But no one even care bout me
Never too deep for one to reach
But everyone just step aside
Never too kind to give away
But it always seems there's no way out
Never too fast to judge through external
But why must I be judge so?
Hatred of birth
Chains of living emotions
Deemed for one sake
Hint of unleashed fear
Being someone hated
Unwanted in any ways
Simplified under the fate
Yield without hope
Running away from you
Far from all my fear
Close to where I belong
Somewhere I never know
Drowned by fate
Burned by trust
Lost by words
Saved by no one
Rival of love
Lend on my life
Doomed by thy sake
Ruined by hate
How far could I run?
How deep could I dive?
How true can I be?
How long can I stand?
My life is empty
My life is fearful
My life is disturbed
Aware of strangers sharing the same blood
Millions miles I'd run
Still I can't be there
Thousand feet I dive
Still I left behind you
Fond of green love
My heart always dream for
Once I'm drifted away
By the wave of unwilling trust
How true shall I be
To prove my love ain't fake
Charmed by the beast
I left behind alone
Never want to love you
Never want to miss you
Never want to remember you
But I do
Steaming emotions
Broke by one's stubborness
Begging by the doorway
I bend my knees to pray
My love that I'll die for
Lift me up to heaven
Vapourize my heart with your songs
That I have ignored for years
Forgiveness I yield for
Those time of hate and anger
Love o
There you go
Starring upon the stars
Hands raised high
Pointing to one point.
Unsure.
There you go
Trying to catch all what you can
Hands reaching out.
Unable.
Must you wonder what there is ahead?
Since you still one step behind.
Still you keep your memories close to you.
Sincere of feelings
You break down and cry.
Blame it on others.
Still you have your aware with you.
A step towards heaven
Golden stairs ahead.
You step your journey ahead
And then you fall
On your knees you cry.
Again.
Blame it on others.
As you make your steps to retreat
A voice whisper to your ear
A voice whisper to your heart
A voice whisper to
She stands there among the clouds
Looking down on her creatures
Standing on the viaduct of life
Proclaiming the glory she shall reigns
She cries river of tears
Facing the sins of her loved creatures
Loath of hating those who stays below
Fervent of staying alive for another reason
Believed that she live
Corporeal repeat thy indulgence
Sum of peccadillo that lives from air
Summons of the beast that lies within
Hauled heaven under her feet
Qualm of her assessment
Guided thy creatures against thy will
Sympathized by one love
A hand reigns to lead
Upon the death of a son
Tears of a girl
Unshed thy devotee's sins
Insist of exi
Look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
Look deep inside
Can you even see what there is?
Said that you love me
You told me and I trusted you
Said that you care
You told me and I trusted you
Why must you cheat me?
I tried to forgive you
Tried so hard that I don't want to stop
I tried to hate you
Tried so hard that I love you more
I tried to forget you
Tried so hard that I keep on dreaming of you
What are you laughing at?
What are you smiling at?
What are you staring at?
What are you crying at?
I know it's all your lame acts
Twist your head and die
Shoot yourselves and die
Drown yourselves and die
Crunch yourselves and die
Hi everyone ^^
Im back here, again lol. Been quite a while huh? So I guess there's a lot of things that I need to patch around here. Might take a day or two.. or more..
So, catch yall around ^^
Finally I realized that Im no more than a loitering soul trying to be placed in a place that I can fit in and live with them. Being rather selfish and lonesome for the past few months really makes me wonder of my current being. Recently I found back my passion of writing but I rather scared to be back here to write. The fear of not being placed in the soul of a community - that freaks me badly.
Well fellow souls, my hands are there to be guide. I hope my comeback this time wouldnt be another fake message of a creeping liar.
I am a
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Aite...I'm through with my finals and I'm done with my course. Now I'm preparing myself for the days to come. It had been a great missed of all the stuff in here when I'm busy. I realized that metalmistress (https://www.deviantart.com/metalmistress) is back and I'm glad that she is. Altho not many would want to know me or even know me...but I'm glad enuff to say that I've witnessed their arts and I'm impressed. So, now I guess I'm here again to start it up all over again. All those time that Ive missed...I wont try to look back but I'll start heading ahead. Hope I'll start well and do well!
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